I know I may not be the best leader a Fam can have ; in fact , sometimes I feel that I'm not deserving of this title that is given to me ..



Today I'll be writing a post , a piece of my mind , about InsanitoriuM .



I'm sure many of you love InsanitoriuM , right ? Afterall , we as a family , played together to raise the points of this Fam with nothing less of our hardwork and determination . Staying up till morning , waking up early the next day just to earn as much points as we can ; trying our hardest not to fall behind the other competitive Fam guilds . Constantly nagging at the ones that's not willing to help out , even though some of us are just too tired to care anymore



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Yeah that's right .
Tired .
It's tiring when I'm the only one caring about wanting the best for the Fam . It's tiring when I have to constantly beg for people to have the best interest of the Fam at heart . It's tiring when all my efforts faltering ; because without you , this Fam is nothing but just a house . Empty . Souless house .



I shall not mention names .
For that would be too crude , too ugly to see .
Still I'd like to thank BabyYummy , ~Karina-VE~ , --FR-x , ~J , Fluxjedi , RichCOKER , ~Vina , BearBo , -Haru- , born2belove , inzzD_Lin , FnDz ( sorry if I missed out any ) ; the few who showed me that they really want this , the few who really cared .
What about the remaining of you ?
What is this Fam to you really ?
Just another guild ?



I don't mind nagging , I don't mind having to beg ; I've nagged , I've begged , and if it will get to you one day , it wouldn't matter at all .
But what I'm seeing right now is nothing . You don't care about what I've nagged , you don't care that I begged , you think I'm selfish , separating you from your friends , tying you down with me to help in Fam channels . Is that what you see ?
Cause then you tell me . Don't wear me out any thinner , I'm almost bruised to my bones already . Frustrated that none of my intentions are taken seriously , and yet when I approach you to clarify , to make you understand , you label me as being forceful , controlling , not understanding to *your situation .



*You have school , you have homeworks to do .
How am I any different ? How are those who worked hard to help me is any different ?
I have projects due dates (too) , school (too) , and soon I'll be starting work ; If I were to use this excuse to abandon InsanitoriuM , would that be fair to those that is constantly helping out despite their busy schedules ?
No , I do not mean you neglecting your studies . That is 2 completely different things .



To members (some) ;
InsanitoriuM is nothing without you people .
Zero , NIL , a black hole .
For those who's always online and helping me , thank you ;
for the understanding , for your amiable efforts ,
for everything (:




And to JRs (some) ;
What is JR ? You assist me , you stand by me , you help me keep the guild in coordination and proper order .
Sorry for being harsh , but I've seen very little efforts from some of you and it's really , really disappointing . You begged for this title , I gave you because I know you deserve it , because I trust you ; please , I beg of you , don't bruise this trust . Don't bruise the confidence I have in you . Don't make me have to take the title off you and give it to someone else that I think would deserve more than you .. I don't want to do that , ever . But if you leave me no choice , then what must be done , must be done . I've done this before , and I'll do it again . Yeah ruthless , I am when I have to , and I apologize in advance .
& to my favourites ,
no amount of thank yous would be enough for you guys . You guys turned out to be everything (and more) that I've ever wished you would turn out to be .
<3


And to Master , me ;
As for now , I'll be strong .
For InsanitoriuM , I'll be strong .

I know I may not be the best leader a Fam can have ; in fact , sometimes I feel that I'm not deserving of this title that is given to me ..



Today I'll be writing a post , a piece of my mind , about InsanitoriuM .



I'm sure many of you love InsanitoriuM , right ? Afterall , we as a family , played together to raise the points of this Fam with nothing less of our hardwork and determination . Staying up till morning , waking up early the next day just to earn as much points as we can ; trying our hardest not to fall behind the other competitive Fam guilds . Constantly nagging at the ones that's not willing to help out , even though some of us are just too tired to care anymore



.



.



.



Yeah that's right .
Tired .
It's tiring when I'm the only one caring about wanting the best for the Fam . It's tiring when I have to constantly beg for people to have the best interest of the Fam at heart . It's tiring when all my efforts faltering ; because without you , this Fam is nothing but just a house . Empty . Souless house .



I shall not mention names .
For that would be too crude , too ugly to see .
Still I'd like to thank BabyYummy , ~Karina-VE~ , --FR-x , ~J , Fluxjedi , RichCOKER , ~Vina , BearBo , -Haru- , born2belove , inzzD_Lin , FnDz ( sorry if I missed out any ) ; the few who showed me that they really want this , the few who really cared .
What about the remaining of you ?
What is this Fam to you really ?
Just another guild ?



I don't mind nagging , I don't mind having to beg ; I've nagged , I've begged , and if it will get to you one day , it wouldn't matter at all .
But what I'm seeing right now is nothing . You don't care about what I've nagged , you don't care that I begged , you think I'm selfish , separating you from your friends , tying you down with me to help in Fam channels . Is that what you see ?
Cause then you tell me . Don't wear me out any thinner , I'm almost bruised to my bones already . Frustrated that none of my intentions are taken seriously , and yet when I approach you to clarify , to make you understand , you label me as being forceful , controlling , not understanding to *your situation .



*You have school , you have homeworks to do .
How am I any different ? How are those who worked hard to help me is any different ?
I have projects due dates (too) , school (too) , and soon I'll be starting work ; If I were to use this excuse to abandon InsanitoriuM , would that be fair to those that is constantly helping out despite their busy schedules ?
No , I do not mean you neglecting your studies . That is 2 completely different things .



To members (some) ;
InsanitoriuM is nothing without you people .
Zero , NIL , a black hole .
For those who's always online and helping me , thank you ;
for the understanding , for your amiable efforts ,
for everything (:




And to JRs (some) ;
What is JR ? You assist me , you stand by me , you help me keep the guild in coordination and proper order .
Sorry for being harsh , but I've seen very little efforts from some of you and it's really , really disappointing . You begged for this title , I gave you because I know you deserve it , because I trust you ; please , I beg of you , don't bruise this trust . Don't bruise the confidence I have in you . Don't make me have to take the title off you and give it to someone else that I think would deserve more than you .. I don't want to do that , ever . But if you leave me no choice , then what must be done , must be done . I've done this before , and I'll do it again . Yeah ruthless , I am when I have to , and I apologize in advance .
& to my favourites ,
no amount of thank yous would be enough for you guys . You guys turned out to be everything (and more) that I've ever wished you would turn out to be .
<3


And to Master , me ;
As for now , I'll be strong .
For InsanitoriuM , I'll be strong .